讨鬼传极白色的蛇皮:黑猴?Black?Monkey

如果给你一个机会,让你可以不再变老,你会接受吗?

If you got a chance to be young forever, would you accept it?

Black Monkey

1．When Blueberry was 25, she was indeed like a fresh and aromatic fruit. She got married.

2. She gave birth soon after to a boy that like a small tender flower.

3．When she was 35, people said she was the same as when she was 25. She was very glad.

4.When she was 45. She began to feel strange. She was still look like 25.

5.Being out with her husband and son was as if being with father and brother.

6. The doctors could not help her so she went to see a witch.

7. The witch blew a handful mimosa, they were like little yellow fluffy balls, flowing into the wind, guiding her a direction.

8.She followed them to an open market.

9．The mimosa fell onto a clock stall. An old man was selling all kinds of curious clocks. He said to her, ‘choose a clock, and wind it up.’

10.She chose a monkey clock.

11.While she was winding it up, she knew she was saved. Something in her began to tick again.

创作笔记

钟表是糟糕的发明：它驯服了时间，禁锢了时间，让时间失去了魔性。我们的时代，糟糕的发明还不少吗？

大概是住在罗马的那一年，我做了一个梦，梦中，我发现自己不可以再变老了，于是非常恐慌、焦虑。梦中我把不能变老视为一种绝症。有个声音告诉我，去市场里找一个老人，是卖钟表的，他可以帮我。我就去了，在一个露天集市上找到了一个摊位，那里有一个长长的桌子，桌子上琳琅满目都是奇怪的钟表，有菠萝形状的，厕所马桶形状的，动物形状的还有其他各种各样古怪形状的。老人说，挑选一个钟，给它上弦。我就选了一款，似乎是猴子的，当我给它上弦的时候，我忽然有一种如释重负的感觉，我知道我得救了。我体内神秘的生物钟响应了一种奇妙的召唤，它又开始走动了。后来，那个老人死去了，我非常难过，在梦里情不自禁泪流满面。

醒来后，我想到梦中自己得知不能变老后的那种绝望担忧，觉得很有意思。现实中如果发现自己不再变老，说不定能乐得蹦起来。有时候梦境会模拟一种场景，让人们提前有一种体验，或体验永远不可能有的体验，满足我们潜在的好奇心或者需求。梦有的时候会给我们一些答案，一些我们还不知道如何去问的问题的答案。在清醒的世界里，我或许好奇过不再变老是什么感觉，梦就给了我一个预演，梦也许在告诉我，永葆青春不是你想要的，那是可怕的，你终会为你不朽的生命所累，最终厌烦你永恒的青春。你将会讨厌不断地搬到新的地方，认识新的人，看着他们一个个变老、死去。只有你在岁月无尽的长河中漫无目的地漂游，没有任何人和你在一起。没有什么是不朽的，只有你，永不衰老，永不消亡，有一双疲倦的眼睛。

还是让我们变老吧，和所有人一样，变老、死去。

不过，让我们试着优雅地、慢慢地变老。

Notebook:

Clock is an awful invention, together with many other dreadful inventions of our era. It tames Time and imprisons Time. Time lost its magic.

Clock reminds you: Seconds pass, hours pass, days pass. You are getting old.

Getting old is ugly; it is like an incurable disease. We are decaying. We will be rotten and be eaten by worms or flames. I once read a story that eating mermaid’s flesh can make you either transforming into an ugly monster or guaranteeing you everlasting youth. Many people ate the flesh and became monsters. Only few ones remain young. Those young people had been living for centuries and centuries, and all they want is to return to normal again, getting old, and die.

Black Monkey is based on one of my dreams. In my dream I found that I could never get older anymore. I was so anxious, feeling that I got a vital disease. Someone guided me to a market stall where an old man was selling clocks. I got one from him and wand it up. In my dream, I suddenly felt such a wonderful relief, a sheer happiness. I knew I was cured. I wanted to thank the old man, but he was dead. I was very sad and began to cry.

I woke up and found my feelings in the dream are quite curious. I didn’t expect I would be so upset when I was given an everlasting youth. In reality I probably would jump for over joy. But then I thought it again, would it be really nice? Being young forever? One day I would be so tired of life, tired of moving to new places, getting to know new people, and watching them getting old and die, leave me alone in this world. Wandering like a shadow. So I think I am actually happy with my mortal life.

Let us get old and die as everybody.

Let us getting old gracefully.