连环套有意思吗:一篇原创稿《孩子是我眼里的泪水》的英文版

一篇原创稿《孩子是我眼里的泪水》的英文版

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    这篇原创稿《孩子是我眼里的泪水》发表于《青年文摘》2009年3月上半月刊的原创栏目“热读”，今天在网络上搜索到其英文版，不知道翻译者为哪位朋友，真的很感谢他（她），让我的文字以另一种面目出现：

my boy is a single tear clouded in my eye

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i know a mother,who surely deserves the words  tragic and heroical.

the tints of her life suddenly overturned to shadow when her boy was 7.

the boy was diagnosed as hemophiliac,a incurable disease one

contracting should be treated as glasses,in case hurt to bleed,then

non-stop bleeding,even life-threatering, by the big hospital of the

provincial capital.if the hemophiliac hemorrhages,only Factor 8 can be

used to stop it, however a medicine so rare and expensive that the

ordinary family can never afford. the doctor even alleged that the boy

cant live longer than 18year-old.

the sky sunny just a moment ago caved in suddenly. she was 29year-old

,used to so happily living,but the disease of her boy shaken her much

older overnight.

she told me that ,"i can never accept as true the miserable would fall

onto my boy and me,even till now.i was drowned into a nightmare,unable

to wake up. i felt something inside my system was crashed into

pieces.in origin,i was washed through with tears,afterwards,even tears

took pity on me, escaping faraway,no crying allowed me any more.

the tragedy continued.another heavily tough adversity beat her.her

husband stoled all money's worth in the family ,besides the deposit

book,and disappeared unsearchable,without any news till now.

he is sort of poltroon.he told me how pityful he was by inexplicable

disappearance.the way she refered to him is exceptionally calm as she

just talked about someone strange.

the darling was all her cherished,this moment,she loves him more and

more.it seems that she can hear  songs and promises about love from her

skelecton. she has dropped no more a single tear since her husband

disappeared that crying even turns out a humiliation for her. she told

no one about her boy's condition except her parents and her hasbands'.
the continued beats let her understand that no one has immense power to

change their lives. she would depend herself to prolong her daring's

life span and life,to protect his health to the greatest extend,to let

her boy own love and happiness ,happiness and dream.

she works in the factory like a man,in fact,even man would goof off

sometimes,but she never.i have seen her taking hold several steel tubes

 ,hard trying onto her shoulder. the steel tubes let out some sound

that would make one tears fall down.her body ,not that strong,was

burdened to deep bent down.there were some hairs ,missed up,to sway

difficultly as her syncopated-cadence steps. her work clothes is as

dirty as other workers',but her face,no matter how carelessfully she

dirt it,always is much  cleaner than her clothes,kind of beauty that

soul stirring.she is 33 now.she said she had grown much older one

night,but later the aged evanesces,runs or walks close following the

cadence of time and  tidy,neither faster or slowlier.

she has a brother who deeply loves her.she childishly begged her

brother to teach her drive car as they were little girl and boy in the

childhood  faraway. in fact,it is just a pedicab.after she gotta master

 it,she drives it to deliver milk and candy for shops and

kindergartens.

she really drives well,but every time i meet her driving by,she armed

to the teeth always.she told me ,"i am being more and more timid.for

unfortune had visited us once,i always worry that it would come back

again.my baby cant live without me,that he needs a mum, healthy and

complete.

2.

if there is something that can be considered as fortune for her,maybe

it is her baby's condition is kind of minimal hemophilia.and the kind

of most serious would bleed inside without any hit,no sake.
when thinking of the misery of her boy, her heart would ache ,tightened

 into a little kern,only realizing the forturn in the misforturn,it can

get renascence to continue beating,strengthful and powerful.

her boy is studying in the lodging department,high tuition fee to

2000yuan a term,which belongs to the most expensive in the province

capital.however,she is willing.it is because that the experimental

class of lodging department enrolls the least students,and her child

would be a little more safe here,which makes her worry a little less.

each new term begins,she would charge phones of her boy's all teachers

in advance,in case something special happens to her boy that they can

easily contact her in time.she had consulted  doctors much about

stanching solutions and taught her boy one by one. but she always feels

 her boy so young and so helpless.she is so afraid that her boy would 

unable to manage it when bleeding,in a flurry.

she said,there were little people know about disease of this kind.i

wouldn't allow other children to treat my boy as one different so i

just told the teachers that my baby was exactly the same as the other

kids but just of some special physique,only hard to stanch.in true,he

grows fast,bright and lively,intelligent and lambkin,even wanna 

protect his mum when i was wronged.and his teachers all approve him

smart and cute,good at study.the sorest time for him ,maybe when they

have the gym lessons,only can sideby watch his classmates playing

basketball,playing football and learning dancing.

his nose is so frail that it would bleed rudely when it is too dry a

day ,or he had something of strong acrimony,or hit by accident.in a

most horrible situation,it would be non-stop bleeding,when  plug into a

cotton,gonna be drowned by blood soon,still bleeding straightly,and

nothing can do to help.when i saw a basin of clean water
turn  into a whang red instantly,i was always too intense to breathe or

 to eyeopen to see all this.but my boy was always being calmer than

anyone else.no one know more about his nose and himself in danger than

himself. he is so little,but sometimes i feels him a real big man.

3.

she has a uncle who gotta begin an undertaking in shenzhen.it is said

that he has a little-scale pharmaceutial factory.

she said ,"it is so a long time since we contacted last time that my

memory about him becomes somewhat indistinct." but one day ,i

unexpectedly received the Factor 8 from him ,full four cases.it was the

life-saving medicine of my boy,and it was the special moment that

factor8 in short supply nationwide. i had no courage to call my uncle

directly for i was scared to cry out to unable to say a word.i didn't

know how my uncle got known my boy's disease and how much money  he had

spent,how much setback he had taken  to get the Factor 8. i chose to

send messages to him and poured all my appreciation deeply in my heart.
uncle response the message,saying:"my girl.uncle can do nothing to help

u but only so little.my girl,you will be both ik." it was this message

that drived me cry for a long long time,not because of my boy.but i

understand,folks are ones loving u ,helping u away from  cold,no matter

u turn to them or not. we surely gonna live well on,all my family know

it.

i got recognized the mother on line. i am the master of literal bcc in

the little city.

one day,a boy came to me with a composition,however titled "i am the

bloodsucker of my mum".i was scared,and read it with astonishment.

in fact,there were several times the boy had bleed too much and yet

hard to stanch,and cant wait for any Factor 8. so she begged the doctor

to transfuse her own blood into her boy.she knew they are both o-type

blood.each blood transfusion need 200ml and there were twice of so

short time-lag  that she can hardly recover at all. she would rather

die to save back her daring.she nearly begged the doctor to help her.

her boy was saved and she went back to work in weak. it was hot then

but she felt cold throughout,cold to gnash her teeth to hold on.the boy

 said to her,"mum,please cry out.don't hold on." she answered her daring with a

smile,"i can't cry. u are tears in mum's eyes." my boy understood in a

instant,and said,i wouldnt cry either.no cry,no cry,no cry,but the

boy's tears still flooding down slightly. she embraced her boy,neither a

single tear,and comforted her boy,baby,u had cried for mum.and mum's

much better now.now dry your tears and take a cup of tea for

mum,ok.then,the boy stopped crying at once,he wrote down in his

compositon,"how  could i continue crying when mum needed me?"

the next time,when she strethed out her arm to the doctor,the boy said

softly to doctor,"my aunt,could u please change a injection a little

thinner for my mum.you know,the thick one would hurt my mum."hearing

this,the doctor bursted into tears all of a sudden and changed for mum.

mum had been blood transfution to her boy four 4 times.and the boy

hasnt turned to her mum any more since  her uncle dilivered the four

cases of Factor 8 them.it seems some miracle happens. the boy sometimes

 complained of his granduncle that if he had dilivered the Factor 8 a

little earier ,mum would escape to be tortured like that.

"i will invent a lot Factor 8 in future,for myself and for others who

need.and then mum wont lose a drop of blood any more.i wont be mum's

bloodsucker any more,"the boy wrote the ending.

i was clouded with full tears when reading.i hadnt altered a word of

the boy's composition,only changed its title into"i am the flower

irrigated by mum's blood"

i thought of some words by Senec,"why do you cry for part of your rainy

day? can't you see that there are lives throughout drowned in tears."

and she cherishes her boy as tears in her eyes,though living a tears-

drawing life still hates to weep....

附原文：

孩子是我眼里的泪水

孙君飞

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　　我认识一位母亲，应该说是一位悲壮的母亲。

　　在她的孩子7岁时，她的人生彻底换了容颜。孩子被省城的大医院确诊为血友病患儿，这是一种不治之症，需要像对待玻璃一样保护他，一旦皮外出血就会血流不止，甚至危及生命；出血时必须注射第八因子用以止血，但这种药物极及昂贵，而且产量极低，普通人家绝对使用不起。医生甚至断言，孩子活不过18岁。

　　好端端的天空就这样塌陷了。她那时29岁，一直无忧无虑，但儿子的病让她一夜之间苍老了许多。

　　她跟我说，我一直不相信不幸会降临到我和孩子的头上，现在仍不相信。我做了一个醒不过来的噩梦，觉得体内有什么东西哗啦掉了。刚开始，我整日以泪洗面，后来连泪水也同情我，躲得我远远的，不让我哭。

　　接着，又一个沉重的打击降临到她的身上。她的丈夫偷偷拿走家里所有值钱的东西，取走存折上所有的存款，神秘的在人间蒸发，至今杳无音信。

　　他是一个怯懦的人，他用莫名其妙的“失踪”告诉我他是多么可怜。她提到他，异常平静，就像在谈论一个陌生人。

　　孩子曾经是她的珍宝，现在她爱他爱得越来越深，仿佛在她的骨骼里都能够听到爱的歌唱和承诺。丈夫逃离家门后，她再也没有流过一滴泪水。哭简直变成了一种耻辱。除了父母，彼此的父母，她隐瞒了孩子的病情。接连的打击让她明白，谁也无法扭转他们的人生，她要凭自己一个人的力量去延伸孩子的生命和人生，尽量维护他的健康，让他跟其他的孩子一样拥有爱和幸福、希望和梦想。

　　她在厂里像一个男人那样工作，其实男人也会偷懒，她却不会。我曾经见过她怎样将几根钢管努力地扛到肩膀上，钢管发出一种叫人想落泪的声响，她并不健壮的身子深深地弯了下去，有一些头发乱了，随着她顿顿挫挫的步伐很别扭地晃动了几下。她的工作服跟其他工人的一样脏，但她的脸不管怎样不小心被弄脏，却好像永远比工作服干净，有一种惊心动魄的美。她此时33岁，她说她曾经一夜苍老了很多，但后来那种苍老消散了，跟着岁月一起奔跑或者散步，不超前也不落后。

　　家里有一个宠爱她的哥哥，她像小时候那样缠着哥哥教她学开车，其实只是一辆三轮车。学会后，她开着它给商店和幼儿园配送牛奶和糖果。

　　她的黑车技挺好，不过我每次看见她开车路过，总是全副武装。她说，我越来越胆子小了，不幸来过一次，担心它还会再来。孩子离不开我，他需要一个健康、完整的妈妈。

　　2、

　　幸运的是，她的孩子是血友病里最轻的一种，而最重的，无缘无故也会体内出血，引起关节残疾。想起孩子的不幸，她的心会疼痛得紧缩成一个小小的果核，又想到不幸中还有幸运，所以才会继续坚强有力的跳动着。

　　她的孩子在寄宿部上学，每学期的费用高达2000元以上，属于全城最高的学费。但她心甘情愿，因为寄宿部的实验班招的学生最少，孩子放在安全隐患少的环境里，她才放心一些。每学期，她都提前给班主任和每一位任课教师充好话费，让他们遇到孩子出现特殊情况马上和她联系。她向医生请教了不少止血方法，一一教给孩子，不过还是觉得孩子太小又孤单，害怕他出血时手忙脚乱，一个人扛不过来。

　　她说，这种病，没有几个人了解。我不愿其他人歧视孩子，跟老师只说我的孩子体质特殊，除了难经止血外，他跟其他孩子没有什么两样。是的，他个子长得很快，聪明活泼，懂事听话，在我委屈时还想保护我。教师说他真的聪明伶俐，学习成绩非常好；他最难过的时候大概就是上体育课时，眼巴巴的看着同学们打篮球、踢足球、学舞蹈。

　　他的鼻子是太娇弱，气候干燥时，吃了刺激性强的食物或被无意间碰撞了，都会毫不客气的流出鼻血。最吓人的是，会一直汨汨的流，鼻孔里塞了药棉，药棉马上被鲜血渗透，仍旧滴滴答答地直冒血。看到一盆清水刹那间红艳艳一片，我紧张得不敢呼吸，不敢看。他却比所有人都镇定，没有人比他更了解自己的鼻子和危险中的自己。他那么小，有时候我居然觉得他是大大的男子汉。

　　3、

　　她有一个舅舅，在深圳创业，据说拥有一个小型制药厂。

　　她说，我和舅舅多年没有联系，心里有关他的记忆变得有些模糊。但有一天，他竟然收到他寄的第八因子，整整四盒。这是孩子的救命药，当时又正逢第八因子全国缺货的时候。我不敢给舅舅打电话，我怕我哭得说不出话。不知道舅舅是怎么知道孩子的病情的，他花了多少钱，费了多少力气，才买到这些救命的药。我给舅舅发了短信，把心里的话全说给他听。舅舅回信说：“舅舅什么忙也帮不上，只能帮你这一点儿，闺女，你们会没事的。”这条短信让我哭了很长很长时间。不是为孩子哭。我明白，亲人就是那种你不去求他，他也会爱你、让你离开寒冷的人。我们确实会好好活下去，所有的亲人都知道。

　　我和她是网上认识的，我是小城文学论坛的版主。

　　一天，孩子拿来一篇作文让我看，题目竟是《我是妈妈的“吸血鬼”》。我心里骇然，惊讶的看下去。

　　原来，过去有几次，孩子失血过多，又难以止血，也等不来第八因子。她知道自己和孩子都是0型血，于是垦求医生将她的血输到孩子体内，医生无奈的答应了她。每次输血都需要200毫升以上，其中有两次输血紧挨着，她的身体根本没有恢复正常，她宁可自己死，也要救活孩子，几乎是哀求医生帮她采血、输入。

　　孩子的生命保住了，她拖着虚弱的身体照常上班。那时天气炎热，但她感觉浑身冰凉，冷得咬着牙齿，腿也肿胀起来。孩子对她说，妈妈，你不要忍，哭出来吧。她笑着对孩子说，你是妈妈眼里的泪水，我不能哭。孩子一下子明白过来，说自己也不哭。不哭、不哭、不哭，孩子的眼泪还是无声地汹涌而出。她抱过孩子，依然没有眼泪，说孩子替两个人哭了，妈妈好受我了，擦干泪，去给妈妈倒杯水，好吗？孩子马上不哭了，他在作文里写道，妈妈需要我的时候，我怎么能继续哭吗？

　　下一次，当她伸出手臂，请医生采血时，孩子安静地对医生说，阿姨，给我妈妈换一个细一点儿的针吧，那么粗的针，妈妈会痛的!医生一听，眼泪一下子涌出来，不过还是微笑着给他的妈妈换了一个细一点的针头。

　　妈妈已经为孩子输了四次知，当她的舅舅将4盒第八因子寄来后，孩子再也没有输过她的血，奇迹仿佛出现了。孩子有些抱怨舅爷爷，他早些把药寄过来就好了，妈妈便不用那样受罪。我将来要发明许许多多第八因子，自己用，也让别人用，妈妈的血再也不会抢劫一点一滴。孩子最后写道，我再也不会成为妈妈的“吸血鬼”了。

　　我看得热泪盈眶，擦干泪水后，孩子的作文我一个字也没有改动，仅仅把题目改成《我是妈妈用血浇灌的花朵》。

　　我又想起塞内加的一句话：“何必为部分生活而哭泣，君不见全部人生均催人泪下？”而她因为孩子是母亲眼里的泪水，在催人泪下的人生中依然不忍落泪。